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Sunday, 23 August 2009

  • It happens...

    Well today my eating was not good. It really wasn't but Im not worried about it because I have been through a lot of mental stress the past few days. I found out some devistating information and im trying to process it all. Im proud of myself for handling it as well as I have. I did walk on the treadmill. I could only do 9 minutes but atleast I put in the effort. Im going to try again tomorrow. Its okay to fall off the wagon as long as you always get back on. Tomorrow im going to treat myself to a sorta at home spa day. I try to do this about once a week and boy do I need it! Im going to have my mom help me trim and color my hair, im going to do my nails, exfoliate my whole body, and whatever else i come up with. Maybe a nice bubble bath and a good book. XD

    Anyways...how about some healthspo?      

             

Saturday, 22 August 2009

  • Today was a somewhat lazy day but I suppose I needed it.  I just sat around on the internet, took my doggie for a little walk, walked on the treadmill, did my neck stretches, and sat on the internet some more. lol

    My diet was better than it has been. And considering all I have been through in the past few days (finding out two of my friends really weren't and that my bf has cheated on me in the past), I did very well.

    Intake:

    Breakfast:
    2 cups cereal: 240

    Lunch
    egg and turkey salad: 220
    Pb sand: 170

    Protein shake: 350

    Dinner:
    tuna in soft taco shell: 290
    some kinda healthy chips: 130

    2 Health bars of some sort: 180

    Total: 1580

    Exercise: 10 minutes on the treadmill, neck stretches

    My goal has been 1400 for a while now but I haven't been reaching it. But this is closer! I believe I am gonna get back on track now that Im back on xanga. You girls push me to do it! XD I am going to be posting healthspo with most entries again starting tomorrow. Hope you all did well.

    Laters

Thursday, 20 August 2009

  • I Have Returned!

    Hello loves.
    I have been gone for a few months now. My weight loss journey is still going. I have realized the past few weeks that i am just lacking the determination I had before to lose so I decided I needed to get back to my xanga! Plus I was wondering how you girlies were doing these days. I am at 143 lbs currently. Still lbs from my goal. I think these last 23 lbs are gonna be the hardest to loose! I dont wanna cut my calories any lower but I believe I am going to have to because I can't workout that much thanks to back, neck, and shoulder problems that are still going on.
    It has been a year and a half now and my back, neck, and shoulders still hold me back so much and I still have no diagnosis. I am fixing to try to go to a specialist of some sort and figure out once and for all what the hell the problem is.
    Anywhoo, I have started working towards my modeling goals. Havent gotten to work with an actual photographer yet thanks to certain issues but I have been practicing with a friend of mine and his digital camera. I will post some shots for yall later on.
    I am hoping to start babysitting soon. XD

    Well i will be posting here regularly again because I need to get back on track!

    ttyl chickas!

Tuesday, 05 May 2009

  • Cervical Dista-Whaty-Whaty??

    Hey dolls!

    So I thought I should update you all on my progress. Sorry im not able to do that as much these days. But I do what I can. Well as far as my back, shoulder, and neck goes my back is sooo much better these days! Its still pretty weak but doesn't give me constant pain. My shoulders and neck are getting even more prominent though. So I was at the rebahilitation doctor today and she told me she thinks I have a neck disorder called Cervical Dystonia. Here's the rub on that:

    Cervical dystonia or CD, also known as spasmodic torticollis, is a form of focal dystonia. CD is characterized by abnormal squeezing and twisting muscle contractions in the head and neck area. Sustained muscle contractions result in abnormal positions or posturing. The dystonic muscle spasms associated with cervical dystonia (CD) may affect any combination of neck muscles. These sustained muscle contractions or spasms result in jerky head movements or periodic or sustained unnatural positioning the head (dystonic posturing).

    That's a summary I guess you could say. And the doctor said this could cause the pain in my shoulders also. Makes since because its all connected. I honestly have not noticed any abnormal positioning of my neck but I don't pay that much attention. lol But I do however feel like something is constantly pulling on the muscles in my neck. Like gravity is pulling them downwards and yeah...ouch. My shoulders have been really flarred up the past couple weeks and I think that is partially because I have started practicing my clarinet again. Oh and what may have caused the dysonia is my fall 3 years ago on a school bus or my clarinet playing. The jar from the fall or the constant motion of holding my clarinet. I now have a neck stint that I have to wear a few times a day while doing things like the computer or tv. And I have neck and shoulder stretches to do. Also, I started massage therapy today. I think it really helped!

    Now, weight-loss. Im at 154. Or so my scale sais. No weight loss this past week but honestly, im okay with that right now because that's not the most important thing for me to be working on right now. That can be put on hold as long as I start feeling better.

    Well, Anyone ever heard of this before? Its new to me.

    Laters!

Saturday, 25 April 2009

  • My Life Is Turning Around

    Hey dolls,

    I am not on here near as often anymore but I am still working hard at my weight loss. I am overcoming some personal obstacles in my life. I have overcome my weight loss plateau and the weight is coming off again. I think that is deffinately partly due to me being able to exercise more now!! XD XD XD

    I have been going to the park and walking the trail with my man and we walk around 45 mins to an hour!! That is amazing! Absolutely amazing for me considering all I have been through with my back, shoulders and neck. I walked 30 mins on the treadmill tonight and am so proud! I have been having to sleep on my back with pillows under my legs for over a year now but last night, I slipped off them in my sleep and slept with my legs straight! And it didn't hurt! OMG! Serously guys, this is so fantastic. I cannot express my joy to be healing. I have started drinking a soy protien shake every day after my workout and I think it is helping my  muscles heal and its yummy! I suggest you all try it! It will help your muscles heal from workouts, help you build bigger ones if thats what your trying to do, and it tastes like a regular milk shake! I blend one scoop in one cup of low fat milk with a banana and ice. This past monday when I weighed, I was 155 lbs. So we will see this monday...cant wait.

    I have become addicted to VH1 reality tv. I am especially looking forward to Daisy Of Love. I love her! lol in a non-gay way. Although I do admit I have a lesbo crush on Lindsay Lohan, but only her. lol

    Well thats it for now. I hope you all are improving your lives as well as I am.

Monday, 13 April 2009

  • I'm Still Here

    Hey dolls! I havent been in xanga it what seems like forever. I really hasn't been that long though. Im doing fine. My back and shoulders are still improving and I am walking a little more all the time. Ive been pretty much just maintaining for quite a while now but Ive gotta kick it in gear because summer is getting closer and closer. I'm currently 156.4 lbs. and 32 inches around the tummy. The Acai Berry did seem to help me be more energised but I can't say it bumped up my weight loss because like I said...Ive been maintaining. Ive been eating around 1,400 cals a night and it seems like to continue loosing since I cant bump up my exercise until my back tells me I can, Im gonna have to stay at 1,200 per day. So we will see how that goes.
    That's it for now. So, Im here! Dont worry. XD ttyl chicks.

Sunday, 22 March 2009

  • Getting stronger and skinnay!

    Yes I am!!! Im sure you have all seen them Acai berry advertisements for weight loss online and maybe even on the telly.  Well I decided to try it and bout some in capsules and our local GNC. I will let you know if I think it helps me.  Im just feeling stronger and fitter. My back and shoulders are improving. I have been able to go on long walks with my bf that I wouldnt have been able to do say a month ago. Ive really started healing since I stopped doing my physical therapy stretches every other day and started doing them twice a week. Im just feel like maybe things are turning around for me finally. Thanks girls for being here with me during my journey and giving me support! It means a lot. I layed outside with my sis today in a bathing suit to get some sun because I am paper white! I love being pale but I dont want to burn this summer so im gonna tan. I am looking forward to tha bikini so much! I cant wait! I wanna look good in a bikini and practically live in it this summer! I cant wait for the cool water. XD Well thats all for now. 

       Healthspo!♥
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Tuesday, 17 March 2009

  • Improvement

    Hello dolls,
    So I have good news! My shoulders are making improvement! Woop woop! lol And im still doing alright emotionally. I just cant wait until my back and shoulders get so much better that I can get a job and get a car! Im tired of not being able to go anywhere because I have to rely on my parents and boyfriend to take me. Anyways, im not gonna complain here because Im dong better so I need to focus on that. As far as my weight loss goes, Im looking great! I looked in the mirror this morning and was like WOW! If I stand to the side and suck in my tummy I look bikini thin! lol I just gotta get rid of what I suck in now. lol But the new scale I got is telling me I weigh 160 still. I dont see how! I really dont! So im just pretty much forgetting the scale. My waist is 32 inches and im just gonna keep measuring that for a while. So......that's really all I have to say except, I am sooooo happy spring is here! XD XD XD

    TTYL

Friday, 13 March 2009

  • Doin Alright Actually

    Hello darlins!

    Im doing alright. Went to the doc today to find out about those indentions on my back. She called it skin morphea...yeah I know, sounds bad. But it actually probably isn't because most likely the places I have were caused by the cortisone shots. Im hoping thats true! They did a biopsy. Didnt hurt at the time, all I felt was a little prick from a needle that I assume she numbed me with. But now, it aches because those spots are sensitive anyway. So I go back in 2 weeks to find out the results of that. The doc said they may just heal by themselves which I think they are starting to do. Moving on...my shoulders are feeling a bit better! The rest of my back is about the sameas it has been. I dont understand why it is taking me so long to heal. Im young! Geez...but I just gotta keep sticking it out.
    So about my weight loss. I still dont have a scale that works but Im getting one tomorrow. I weighed today after eating and on my period at my mom's work and it said down one pound!!! XD So that puts me at 153. I hope I actually lost 2 lbs and I probably did. So things are looking up a bit. Oh and the anti-depressant samples the doc gave me are helping. So well that I think I may change from my Effexor to Cymbalta for good. Well, ttyl chicks. I promise when my back feels better I'll start posting regularly again. Hope your all doing well.


Wednesday, 04 March 2009

  • A Hell of a Life!

    Hey! I know I havent been updating frequently but trust me, I have good reason! I haven't been doing as much with my daily walking because of mental fogginess and fatigue but for some reason, Im losing pretty well! I weighed today at my mom's work on a scale they have in the bathroom. The lady it belongs to told me to subtract 6 lbs from what it sais and after I did, I found out Im 154! And that is after breakfast and lunch so Im atleast 152 probably. But we will say Im 154. That means Ive lost 4.8 lbs since I last weighed. I suppose its been about 2 weeks. So thats great! !!! Im so glad because I really didn't think Id been losing lately and Ive been having hell on earth so having this one thing go right is so good! Tonight I let myself just have a free diner and eat what I wanted because the past few days I have been in a terrible state of depression due to loss of my meds and other factors and I so Ive worn myself out physically and mentally from stress. I figured it would do my body good to give it some extra cals and such for once and that I diserved it. So that you all can know more of what Ive been going through, here is my blog I posted on myspace yesterday:

    You guys have been so supportive of me that I thought I owed you a little update. I really do appreciate all your support because I am a bit of a hermit these days due to all that's going on in my life and so you all supporting me online helps me feel less alone. I'm sorry my last post was so negative but I was just in a very negative state of mind. The past 2 days for me have been disaterous. Ill spare you the details and just skim over the gist of it. I obvisously have been very distraught thanks to my back pain and lonely. But the core of it is my anxiety and depression. Yesterday I discovered that my anti-depression meds were missing and I couldnt even remember if I took them the day b4. We searched my house over for hours and they are no where to be found. I honestly cant hardly function without them. I would like to be able to in the future. Strike that, I WILL be able to in the future. But right now, Im just a sad, sad, mess without them. Im going through withdrawal symptoms also. Yesterday I just completely ruined mine and my moms day with my aweful state of mind. It was disaterous but its nothing new for me. Well today I went to lynns so that I would be in a stable state. My mom told me that she spoke to this guy that works at GNC and He suffers from anxiety also. He told her he could talk to me about some natural supplements that might help me. So I went by there and he was fantastic! His name is Bryan and he is a sweetheart and full of helpfull information. What was even better was that he could relate to me. So I got some vitamins and stuff that he suggested and cant wait to get started on them. I really needed something to help me make it through the next month because I cant be prescribed any more. Its the law or whatever. So I feel a little more optimistic today. Tomorrow im going to my regular doctor to tell her how my shoulders are acting and im also going to tell her about the loss of my meds and that I need a councelor. Its really waaaay to late for me to be getting one. I should have got one 9 years ago but Im a chicken. So yeah. I want to get better so badly. I cant live this life anymore. Thats all for now. Thanks for listening.

    Oh, and I think this quote fits perfectly:
     "It is the man gripped by fear, who still stands to face his enemies, that is truly possessed of bravery."

    Okay, so today I went to my doctor. I had to write a list because I had so many things to talk to her about! First I talked to her about the trouble my shoulders are giving me. She has given me some anti-inflamatory patches to use daily and said I needed to work on my posture and gave me some stretches to do. Then I told her about the loss of my meds and the natural supplements I was told about. She totally said no to the supplements for various reason and gave me a months supply of another anti-depressant she had samples of in the office. I am going to have my mom call and get me set up with a councelor. They cant do it for me. Tis crazy. But anyways. I think there was more I talked to her about but my brain is in a fog.... Anyways. In closing, Im praying things get better.
    TTyl

Thin By July 31st Plan


1. 1,400 cal limit per day.
2. Every Wednesday is a 1,800 cal day to
rev up metabolism and help keep from plateau.
3. 27 grams of fiber per day.
4. Work on posture 24/7.
5. Avoid sugar like the plague!
6. Green tea every day.
7. 50 grams of fat per day. More than 70% should be
unsaturated. (ex. nuts, avocados, olive oil)
8. mix lean protien, fiber rich carbs, & healthy
fat at every meal)
9. Move more during the day.
10. Start planning meals the day before.
11. Crunches every day along with exercise
routine I'm already doing.
13. 32 oz of water per day.
14.Fruit with breakfast and veggies
with lunch and dinner.
15. Limit of 2 eggs per week.